Hello everyone. First of all thank you all so much for your wonderful messages of support. I am once again overwhelmed by your generosity of spirit. You are beautiful people and a credit to the Morse Universe.
Secondly, i’m as good as one can be in this situation. On Wednesday of the 6th of May I received a call from Angie who is the head carer for the area in the nursing home where mum was situated. She told me that mum had taken a turn for the worse and her oxygen levels had dropped significantly. At first I didn’t quite grasp the significance of what Angie was telling me but she then said that it would be a good thing if I came to the nursing home. That’s when the proverbial penny dropped.
So I got myself organised and drove to the nursing home. Once I was booted and suited with all the necessary PPE Angie took me to my mum’s room. Mum was not lucid and didn’t respond to anything I said. Mum was breathing heavily and obviously finding it difficult to breathe. One’s hearing is apparently the final sense that fails so I am hoping she heard me when I told her I loved her and missed her.
As anyone knows who has or is going through the death of a relative there is a strange paradox that occurs over the following days. There is a lot of paperwork and phone calls involved in settling a person’s estate. The paradox is that it keeps you busy and so doesn’t allow your mind to linger too long on what has happened. However, when one is completing forms like the death certificate it all becomes real again and you find yourself crying again for the umpteenth time.
Because of the situation the UK finds itself in, my mum’s cremation will not take place until around the the week beginning 18th May. This of course exacerbates the situation but what can one do. I have decided on what I plan to do with my mother’s ashes.
Because of the length of time until the cremation and of course receiving mum’s ashes, I may try and keep busy by writing some posts for this website. But, don’t hold me to that. 😉
Once again thank you, you wonderful people for your kindness and support not only on this website but also on Twitter and Facebook and by email. I have read all your messages and to say it helps me in my current situation would be an understatement.
About thirty five years ago a good friend died and I was trying to find some way to deal with it. Being a C.S. Lewis admirer it occurred to me that I should buy and read his book, A Grief Observed. I did buy the book and read it and found that not only was it a wonderful read but was a comfort. Over the years I have had to rebuy that book about ten times as I never received it back from people I had loaned it to. However, I didn’t have it in my possession for around seven or eight years.
Then Laurence Fox named his latest album on the C.S. Lewis book and that made me realise that I would like to read it again. So, I bought it, again, about two or three months ago but as I had a plethora of new nooks to read I decided to put Lewis’s book aside for the moment.
I am now reading that book. It is once again a comfort. It is a remarkable book. I would recommend to everyone to buy this book if you are going through a loss. It can be bought very cheaply on Amazon and Ebay.
Anyway, I am waffling as is my wont. (People who watch the live streams with me will testify to my having that trait). Take care everyone and thank you all.